It’s hard not to speak with you
It’s hard to see you struggle
Doing your best at work
For a better life
Without me, asking you about your day
And telling you to eat on time
But you gave me the feeling
That I need to give you some space this time
That you need some time alone
Some time to reach out to your beautiful kids
Some time to think, to dream, and to decide
Although this was never included in my choices
Because I told you I’d never give up
I told you I’ll stay with you
And that I’ll just be there by your side
While you’re trying to fix yourself and your life
But it turned out that love
Will not always work that way
That sometimes you need to give some space
Not because you don’t love him anymore
But because you know that this time
You have to trust him
That he’ll be able to solve everything
And come back when he’s already whole again
I know that you’re still gathering all the strength
That you can gather in there
Which you can use in the future
When you’re finally ready
To give and to return
I understand that you’re still having a hard time
Figuring things out while I’m not there by your side
I’m missing you so much
But maybe this is a part of the test
I hope it’s true
That absence can make the heart grow fonder
I hope you’re still in love with me too
I hope your love for me is still greater
Than the temptations around you
Than the thing that you feel
Whenever you want to find refuge from another woman
Whenever another woman tells you that you should let me go
Whenever she tells you to settle with her someday
Whenever she tells you that both of you has the chance
Whenever she makes you feel like it’s going to be a new and happy beginning with her
Whenever she makes you forget about me
You know you’ve let got of a lot of women
Who really loved you
And I hope one day you’ll realize
That maybe this is the time
That you need to fight and be a man
For a woman who really loves you
My love, whenever you miss me
I want you to feel my presence in the city lights
In the loud music outside
In the smile of the people around you
And in your beating heart
Babe, you’re always in my prayers
I believe that soon you’ll get there
In God’s time
And at the right time
Know that I’m just here in the country
Waiting for you to come home
To come back
With your heart
And with your soul
For I know that you’re the only one I love
Neither the men in college
Nor the bachelors in my future work
Can ever change that
For I know that my soul only belongs to you
With its red string
And its ancient Greek mythology
That I once told you.
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To the man that I really love. June 7, 2015 12:12 AM
•I sound disinterested in our conversations, texting or not
•I don’t eat/drink/talk as much as usual
•I stare out into space more than often
•I stay in one place/a few places for long periods of time without moving v much
•I lose track of time
•I rub my head/eyes as if I have a migraine
•I talk more quietly than normal
•I don’t talk abt myself at all
•I make cynical comments, especially abt my existence
•I sleep too much or too little
this is not just me, though. these are common signs/things to be aware of and look for in people/friends/family members struggling w depression. stay safe, and stay aware.
